A rare post about my friends

A post-credit to all of my friends, who have been staying or did stay by my side, when i was booted down from immense glory and arrogance. All have been investing or have invested advises and strength to make me realize who i really am. You will see girls are more, because i see highly upon guys.

Siang Long, friend that can hardly be found anymore, who helped me nonetheless, supported me in any decision I was making, advised me of potential wrong decision, pulled me up from the most upset moment in my life. Without you, I would never be here utilizing lifestyle. He taught me, to friend, you have to be sincere.

Darie, my schoolmate since high school, he is a friend that I would help whenever he needs, because I always think he needs me for advises and I need him for companionship. Yes, we had argument at times but there was a time that we really need to think what is best in friendship between both of us. Anyway, I do appreciate you and I hope you know that you are important to me, too.

Kelsey and Wen Yi, schoolmates since high school, friends that really could sit down in campfire and gossip all night long. Life have been tough though, I am in different path and did not really get back to what I was. Any problems and helps that you need, just let me know, I will be there.

Cheryl Ooi, we have history, not a proud one, maybe that time she was drown in so called true love and disregarded me but it took 4 years for us to become best buddies. She’s a girl who would stands up for me, appreciates me, and will never give up on me. She would slap me for real in case I did anything stubborn. But I have to say this, she is annoying. Anyways, she taught me to not being used by the unnecessary.

Penny Lim, we have history too, a bad one. But we all did mistakes in our life, what is for the best, is start forgiving each other. Fact is I am impressed of her because the way she fought for her life. I knew everything about her and eventually felt in love into our friendship, though we can’t be together, but tell you what, i still want to be your best friend. I do miss you in all sort of ways. You taught me that there are bigger problems out there, so “chill your small peanut cases”.

Shu yun, sweet and bitter, bitter in the past, sweet is now. What is important is now. J Remember when I was drunk, I called you to carry me to my house? It was 2am in the morning lol. Remember you locked my house door from inside, and I came home after you slept? You left me sleeping in hotel. Fuck you seriously. But thanks for always being there for me, although we don’t talk often, but I believe you will be here if I needed you. We are going to do crazy things again teehee.

Chloe Yap, nothing much really to say about both of us, but you are the most kind-hearted person that I met in my life. Our past is not really a pleasant one, but in the deep dark of those memories, I found the good ones. There were moments that I really needed you in these 4 years, and sometimes; I do hope that you were not in my past but in the future. I wouldn’t tell you all these, I will just write it here. Sorry and thanks.

Karmen Lim, remember we were good before we dated. You will be there for me and vice versa, as friend, there were no boundaries. You were a great listener, always when I have problems, you were the first person that I would call and whine. You were a great friend, but my bad, I lost you. I hope that we could talk again after years and years, my experience tells. You taught me to look back after far run.

Melissa Beh, “38” friend. She is a ridiculously-resourceful friend that I would die for. Resourceful in sense of “gossips”, she knows everything about all the artistes, singers, actors and celebrities, she knows all their bad things, and each time she told me, she made me laugh real hard. A person who can chill you out at nowhere, in no time. She taught me to live happily.

Joee Ooi, she has had a hard and superb tough life. A person who will never complain, but her life story, you will be impressed of how she can live up till then. A girl who doesn’t give a damn to problem, a person who would ignore all negativities and do everything in her own way, she doesn’t give a fuck. And each time I tell her my problems, she will just tell me to don care. Sometimes, being ignorant is cool, you don’t care, you don’t expect, you won’t be sad.

These are all the great people that I know for more than a year. And I have met countless of great friends this year, and none of them are stated here because I will use a year time to define them. Whether they are great not, idealistic or realistic, time tells.

In the wrong love

Its not easy, it takes courage, effort, passion, commitment and time. But if you have invested 100% of each of the category end up you fall into a pit of disappointment, then i tell you what, i feel you. Rather this post is not to express any of my dissatisfaction towards what am i pursuing, i am confused.

I reckon every single bad or cheapskate guy was made this way, they were once a generous gentleman i suppose? Perhaps i should just drop myself a question, should i turn myself into one bad stuff or playboy or whatever.

Nice guy usually loses the girl for being exactly who he is, and in fact girl who hasn't want to settle down always meet these nice guys at the wrong time. And the worse thing is the "nice" of him is to the extend of he has nothing to say after losing her. He will accept it as she truly wants and bless her with her type of guys she met not long ago. My past experience, my ex got herself a new bf right after breaking up with me, the fragileness of 2 years relationship was totally replaced by a person who she just met for weeks. The grudges were there and it took time to make myself clear that i wasn't good enough for her and finally forgiven after 4 years. Im blessing her thou. People come and go, the worth one stays, anything happens for a reason and i believe she got herself in a better situation for the best reason. And some people should get a punch from me, and when i punch you, i have my reason. And "some people" have been quite ridiculous recently, endless drama and funny ending - i trembled.

I always remind myself to not greed, i always remind myself of "Dog and Bone story", you cant carry 2 bones at the same time, you have to let go one. In usual manner, maybe its because of the current social life and people i am mingling right now, maybe its you, who would keep the second bone and spend time with the first. Semantically, the nice guy believes in doing the right thing, being the second bone and wait for no return.

I was once a clubber and a guy who spent all my weekend and money in club, and time passed and i have reached to the highest level which is to eventually settle down, but i met the right person at the wrong time, this is the ultimate problem, the one you like likes another person, such a headache. The question is why and the answer can be as simple as you aren't her type that shes looking for. Yes people would just save time and energy because good guy isnt going to make it easy to just walk away, you have to hurt him with words because the good guy cares. You have to tell him you had a night stand with another guy, so the good guy will just kill himself and he will be gone for sure. Again the good guy cares, even though he knows it will be loads of bullshit, he will get his explanation and deal with the rest of his whatever-is-going-to-happen.

I have friend who had a nice guy who treated her very well too, but the girl prefer asshole. She thinks a douchebag is a challenge. Crap. But in fact, the asshole has a charm about him, you would say "theres something about him" because he socialized too well in the night club.

So trust me, you pushed the nice guy away, the nice guy would walk away. When he doesnt, you pushed harder. Each time he comes back, he comes back with a different idea, and that makes you look attracting and he cares about everything that you need and get for you, and that increase your value and thats the moment when you, the girl starts growing. He forced you to grow and you were too busy chasing them off. The nice guy offered endless journey with you and you pushed a "think-too-much" guy far far away and 10 years later, when you marry a douchebag, you complain your husband never think and plan for the future. Funny shit. He gave too much of everything you need that's when you start taking things for granted, you wanted conflict and drama in life and end up complaining theres no nice guy in the world, funny shit x2.

He was the guy you were supposed to be together with, the person who will make things happen for you for the best reason, wishing you to see before other does. Still you think he doesnt suit you, ok fine, hurt him, he will walk away, he called it a day, he said "FML". And the point is what you don't know is that theres someone else out there is waiting for this, she wont waste a minute, she saw how great she treated you and when you realize, its going to be too late.

Bedtime Story: Princess and the frog

Once upon a time, there was a very beautiful lake and there was a fat little grumpy frog and his name is Brandon. Brandon has no friend because of his ugly nature appearance and disgusting behavior. Brandon is a very lazy frog, he doesnt work but eat freely. He had bugs all the time like mm sai pun. At a very fine day, there was a very beautiful princess walking by the lake and she looks worried. Her enormous beautiful look made the Brandon lao bei shui and even the birds around are singing at her presence. While walking, she saw Brandon and Brandon looked at her too. Without second thought, Brandon went to say hi to her and the princess smiled and asked him whether they should grab a lunch at nearest restaurant and without hesitation, Brandon said yes. Hence they walked to a restaurant name Krusty Krab. While walking and Brandon was singing happily, without prior notice, the princess suddenly took out a net from her bag and lou lap Brandon. The princess then rushed back to her castle and cooked frog porridge for her kesian sick penguin and the penguin recovered. The princess and the penguin therefore lived happily ever after ~end~


A Fairy Tale by Julie Lee. 8)

Play safe?

Life is like a spectrum most of the time. Its not easy to be confident I have to say. Most of the people you meet are not like what you think. There isn't a good and bad in life. With relation to the above analogy, it can be said that you can be either totally lacking in confidence, in the "middle", or overconfident. In this case I might categorise myself in the confident region, though not yet over- (I know how it felt to be so, and it sucked when I failed at something). To throw everything to the wind in the hopes of winning something against improbable odds is something of folklore, romantists, and the desperate. Though sometimes people win this way, its not really something I might say applies to everyday life, since there are always better and safer ways. I guess the perspective must be put into the picture before it becomes clearer. What will make you take the risks? Perhaps it might be love, money, reputation or even for kicks. Its unique basically. Personally I'm always in a risky game :) call me a risk taker~ When i find things are good, i would disregard factors, foreseen consequences, researches and risks, i would go ahead because i always wanted to create history, good or bad, that would be a great life experience. I don't worry on things that im going to do but i do on things that i afraid results do not appear in the series of expectation. Only by taking risk, you find miracles and beauty of life.

Having faith in relationship (Trust)

Trust.

Now that's obviously a huge word in relationships and I know most of you are gonna think "Of course, you think you're very smart for discovering this?" But a lot of people today need to re-examine their relationships and dig up for the existence of such a term.

Getting jealous of some guy who's too close to your girlfriend and not trusting her not to take things to another level are different things (works with reverse genders). It is a known fact that jealousy fills the hearts of most couples in Malaysia, for stupid reasons such as your girlfriend is talking to her ex-boyfriend, or something.

Yes, being jealous is just an unavoidable feeling. Restricting him/her from talking to their ex or showing how annoyed you are when they do however, just shows the lack of trust in a relationship.

Now obviously the simple philosophy in restricting someone from talking to someone else is just so they don't feel attached to each other anymore. But as a side-effect, your other half in the relationship would obviously feel pressure, like there are things they can and cannot do even where friends are concerned. And to me, it's not something I would suggest you do.

Some of you are thinking now, "Are you stupid? By allowing my gf/bf to be really close with other guys/girls (respectively), they're obviously going to feel something with each other right?"

If you're going to make your partner avoid getting too close to people of the opposite sex, it's not going to help them learn self-control at all because sooner or later, your partner is going to have a good friend of the opposite sex to entertain him/her (in normal ways) while you're busy sometimes. It's an undeniable fact that your other half will mix with people from the opposite sex and there's nothing you can do about it. And it's inevitable that your partner will speak to his/her ex once in awhile and there's nothing you can do about it. So the best thing to do is obviously to let it go.

If you're on the receiving end of this and you go "He/she doesn't care about me, thats why he/she still lets me talk to my ex/get close to a person of the opposite sex" then that's really dumb because all they have shown by doing this for you is the trust they have in you.

I'm not saying I am perfect and having a romantic relationship going on. Everyone does mistake, I did mistake, my partner did mistake, just have to learn forgive/forgiven but don't forget.

All or nothing is easy. But taking something slowly and still being able to control yourself is really something.