Annoyed, but for the Better

Sometimes I get annoyed by the smallest things.

"Why is this Excel spreadsheet not working as I want it to?"

"Omg - why did the Pudge hook me?"

"Wa liao - why my laptop shut down o slow?"

"Fuck you streamyx"

"Why does class start so late?"

Okay ignore the last one :p

Seriously, sometimes small things, while you are in your "normal" state, do not even put up a tickle to you. You just move on with life. But sometimes, in your very vulnerable state, things can go wary - just like how a punctured gas tank cannot withstand a simple spark, as compared to one that is well insulated and protected. You get all sorts of people - doing all sorts of things - homicides, abuse, drinking, robbing - keeping it closer to home - sulking, ranting, and so on.

My friends from Blueserver would certainly know me as a person who can easily blow up - especially under the stresses of a clan match. In fact the first ever clan match we played (against Clan DvD) was not just a stroll in a park. It degenerated into what I would vulgarly call, a f~k-fest. Tons of that word was spewed out, and for a minute there I thought that even the mighty superpower in the form of "rap", would be disarmed by this seemingly harmless Dota clan match. What is going on?!

To say that "Hey, things just happen. Live with it!", which is the common reply - there is an overwhelming 65% probability that a reply of this nature will appear on a thread in BS Forums, and possibly in everyday life - only showed the sadness of people when it comes to these kinds of things. Does it seem entertaining? Do you even care? It is not the prerogative of the next person to help, but rather it is one's own prerogative to help himself move on - just that sometimes a helping hand extends far beyond what the other person might think it'll offer.

People can get extremely defensive over money issues, that I agree. Sometimes, yes, I am a pretty defensive person over this issue as well, seeing that in reality I dont own any money - my parents do - but sometimes its about how you conduct yourself. Would you think that the argument "hey, im broke for the moment" holds any water for those who just saw you buy a new leather handbag? *snickers*. Or perhaps a Mini Cooper (or two?). Excuse my blatant exaggerations, but sometimes it just has to be done.

Now, the focus of my annoyance, on this issue has basically to do with "saving". Why SAVING?! WTF? Come on, Brandon, surely saving is how we made ourselves so strong - how you came isolated from family, how you were nurtured - and why everyone is still here and not being ready to be sent back because they cant pay their college fees?! No, I am not talking about THAT saving, but rather saving excessively. Sometimes it is important to remember that while peer pressure may seem bad and all, it is important to think of the big picture as well. Simple gestures give away a person's intention on whether he or she thinks of the group, or about him/herself. I am disappointed that sometimes things move the wrong way, but then I tell myself that its the person opinion, and if I do not like it, I simply 1. leave the group, 2. turn a blind eye, 3. tell the person.

Just to note, a friend of mine recently got robbed and was injured badly when he wanted to accompany his "friend" who in turn didn't want to pay the taxi ride from a dodgy place back to hostel. Think about yourself and others, please. >_> ~ Thats about all I can say. Things may look simple here, but in reality, shit can happen. And I while I hope it does not happen, it is important that we take care of any leaks that can cause ignition (not only between us as friends), but also to cause physical harm by external malicious elements.