#13 Feeling Cafe

Haha, i was supposed to do appointment at here, Feeling Cafe, since the environment here is full of echo, thanks to the singers haha so i will appreciate this very precious moment to rest and chill with friend, conducting real chit chatting.

It was quite a while since i sit in a cafe with friends, chat and laugh. And yes, FOR TODAY ONLY!!!!

I was quite surprised when Chloe called me loser in serious tone, The anticipated "loser" is full of anger and hatred as felt.. I was quite down after a while, had insomnia, that would explain why i was late to appointment this morning..

Honestly, i am regret to hurt her feeling, even breaking up with her - i cant believe i love her more now. Frankly speaking, everytime after i was pissed by her, i would love her more, pats here more lol because she really is cute and lovely. Haplessly, she seems happier now, she has more freedom than before, SHE CAN DRIVE NOW!! LOL!! If last time she can drive, it could've saved most of my time. See... she drives now lol. Looking forward for her future, she really does look better, how can i ruin her life and future AGAIN? i shouldn't think to get back to her, indeed, i shouldn't.

Should i stop this 100 posts count? let me consider and reconsider again with higher and hard pillow tonight. :)

#12 Hee Hee

Looks like i have few readers here - They are delighted of my blog resurrection yet they asked - what is with the future relationship? "i don think she will read your blog, don even remember your blog link" - yes i do agree, why am i wasting time here blogging when she will never know haha. I believe she has faith in me, she will read this one day. Anyway......

I have faked a day today, i told Adele i'm carrying on second day tournament in Putrajaya, just to get rid of being summoned to office. I wish i have appointments to do today - how unproductive, all appointments cancelled wehhhh... hmm!!!






i miss Chloe Yap<3

#11 Rest

Today will be the only day i can rest... 3 months working restless, sometimes i do miss my past - burden-less, stress-less, da gei, hang out with friends and wasting money with only 250 per week by my dad. I do admit my previous was fun, enjoyable and happy but still.... fuck it. Now im in my business making figures per months as a full time student, i don see why is this not fun lol. i love my parents, i love my bi, i love all my core leaders, downlines. <3

#10 Good luck

Just acknowledged today is your exam day weee. Good luck!!! make me proud..

#9 Downfall

Im having a serious downfall of my life now...

Im all alone in snowflake sg wang..
Been here since 11am lol, but prospect ffk, penny is in pavilion with her mom and sister haha. i don think she knows that im here, but anyway who cares? lol

This week is super unproductive, what happen to these people, saying no money in Malaysia. Sometimes i do demotivate myself, i used to have bi to support me, spiritually support. But now - i have to move independently, i cant believe that im actually depressed because of losing her. I thought i was strong and solid yet im not. I thought although i have lost her, i still have my best friends with me, yet they arent around. I have all the false thought, yet i still fight for it. I dowan to be a failure, let all the bad stuff fade away and here goes Brandon again :)

#8 Solely

Went to do several appointments like usual, daily basis, some cant close, some had been doing score A, some are forbidden by parents and boyfriend, and some paid deposit. Always come in thought, should i folk out for them first? i suggest not, i will never know if someone i have pay for them ended up missing in action.

Currently waiting for next prospect to come, guess this will be the last prospect of the day. Penny, her emotion have been changing lately, i rather don talk much as im afraid she might demotivate herself again :( but i really am worried about her in every way, because she always think alone, very thoroughly - can be seen through her facial expression. I think i've been bringing much burden to her. She actually said and meant "im sad or not doesnt affect you", ouch, quite hurt though because it does really affect me sia.. My conscience told me, someone is guiding her in other way around, maybe im being too sensitive but she really does seem different. Who actually did this? hmm. i hope im wrong and shes still nice to me ^.^

#7 Oh My GOD!!!!

100 posts count?? 6 posts in 2 days, this is the #7

same like old day, when start blogging, just cannot stop writing hahaha but din you notice my writing style is totally different now. No more bombastic word. I rather wanting ppl to read my blog happily and doubtless than keep checking on dictionary.

I'm now in Popeye, just ate 4 pieces of fried chicken, just cant stop eating. OMG i have been earning so much yet i did not shop, but keep eating constantly. Guess i might be needing some diet product hahahaha..

Last time i do suffer of lacking money, as a rich student now, ive got nowhere to spend, conclusively, money really does not matter to me doesnt it.

I went through several appointments today, all poor little student, cant join because do not have sufficient cash, parents barrier - pityful

Now doing vrinda appt, she's looking at me now writing this single statement LOL, btw where is Karmen Lim? i thought both of you are twin sisters LoL

#6 Resentment

Seeing this emoticon >.< bring me back to the past when i was curious why this Chloe Yap keep using this ><, but when i start putting this emoticon in a cartoon image, it turns out damn cute just like her hahaha.

I was surprised by her new post, like just now?? She seems mad at me, but what can i do, yeah, like what i always do, pretend to be nothing and sad alone yahh!!! What i want to do is to be good in this business, i have my egoism, today i give my parents allowance, and i want to remain this continuously. I have took the step where i cant retreat, i cant ask for my dad allowance, because by doing this, i will be "sui zai". I do hope you really understand haih >.<

#5 Discredited

Im in Starbuck waiting prospect hahaha, i saw Tziaa and Adele came after!!! OMG!!! im so afraid of her T.T

Penny Annabella and Brandon Chen

Penny is in her denial state because of her relationship issues. I cant help her much because she doesn't seem needing my help. I care her a lot, but she seems discrediting it. I will never know what is in her mind, what shes thinking, i really concern >,< - concern not in sense of because of business we are in, concern as part of a friend's responsibility.

What Chloe is doing now? i guess shes in Nottingham planting tree - GEE GEE ah lol

#4 What if??

What if she do not like me anymore?
What if she has found better?
What if she ignores even after she knows about my blog resurrection?
What if she do not know about the 100 counts at all?
What if she suddenly tell me "hey, i just read your blog, LOL?"
What if ...
What if ...

There are these "what if"s appeared in my mind when i woke up this morning. Still.... our faith lies upon 100 posts count. Now just at #4, 96 left ^.^

#3 Exhausted

Super tiring.. Did so many appointments but are not manage to close. Simply because they have no money to join. Some with money but still don feel like joining because they would want to just to enjoy their life before start working as an employee. Sorry to say that, when you are in my reject list, you cant escape to be listed in my curse list. Bi, i always wish you are here to support me :)

#2 100 posts count?

I do not expect anyone to read my blog because this is the main reason i continue blogging here.
I will make this fair enough.

Chloe Yap, breaking up with you is a pain. I will never thought of saying this sentence "lets break up" because i believe in relationship, both must fight together throughout happiness or pain, accept changes, loving each other... but you actually said it.

I said:

When you ask for break, im not sad at all - but you never know that i actually cried for the whole night

Im ready for new relationship - This is a lie, 2 years relationship cannot be simply replaced by other.

Just take it as i love another ppl - if you really believe in me, you will never trust this sentence.

why i would ask for break? The 1st break up by you was alr a nuke, it does great damage to our trust. You did not trust me anymore, you simply listen to unnecessary exaggeration by other ppl and start blaming, ignoring and mad at me. I do not reserve the right to explain to you, because when you start blaming and ignoring me, means you did not trust me anymore. Since i've asked for 2nd break up, and IF you STILL loving me, then this blog will be the measurement of it.

100 posts count means if you get to realise this blog has been resurrected, i will be back together with you. Im not being ego, i still love you. i will still call you bi. Good to know that you have removed my blog link, so i can make this more difficult. And of course, even if you have find out this blog, please make sure you've learn cooking because i would like to have breakfast, lunch and dinner made by you <3

The counts will be stopped if one of the following is denoted:

1) When i know you have find better :)
2) When i have find better :)

I believe if im still possessed in you, you will check out of my blog very soon :)

#1 Resurrection

Actually i did plan to create new blog rather than continue in this stupid expired blog.

But doesnt matter, i notice that most of my readers do not read my blog anymore, blame on me, it was me who left it :)

This blog has been improvised a little bit. Email changed. Everyone is allowed to read now and can be searched through google search now.