Senseless

Every once in a while you wake up to a beautiful morning and have this weird clarity on how you perceive your life.

You wake up to a morning at 6 a.m. to pee.
You're not at home.
You can't go back to sleep.
You watch Spiderman 3 for the 5th time or so even though you hate the movie.
You watch Saturday morning cartoons.
You watch Ashlee Simpson and Madonna music videos when you would normally puke at the sight of either of them.
After burning a few hours, you go home.
Just as you're heading home, you call your friend on the phone to tell him his girlfriend looks hot with short hair.
You hang up.

In the midst of all these random events you start to realize how your life has seemed to stop making sense.

You remember a time when you were young and asked a lot of questions.
You realize how nothing much in your life makes sense anymore, just as before, only you've stopped questioning it.
You remember the night before.
Spending RM35 on crap food at a far-away place where you practically only talked to people you came with.
Drinking with the RM15 remaining in your wallet (RM5 of which you found on the floor and another RM5 made from selling something).
Staying over at your friend's place and actually sleeping, and then leaving first thing in the morning. Which meant staying over was pretty much a waste of time.
You remember more and more things in the past that don't seem to make much sense.

But it's great. And at 9 a.m. on a road with relatively non-existent traffic, you get the time to think about how cool life is when you live it like that. Where everything you do calls for a question, but you just don't ask.

=)