Being single

Being single is great, but when trouble comes to you, and you do not have one beside you to cheer you up, then you are in deep shit.

Being single offers you freedom of social activities, freedom of making friends and freedom to go anywhere without reporting to anyone. But bear in mind, when good stuffs come, bad stuffs are after it – as aforementioned, “when trouble comes to you, and you do not have one beside you, then you are in deep shit”

When you have family problem, no one is there that understand your condition, and you are not pleased to tell anyone.

When you are sick, no one is there to take care of you, and you are not pleased to ask anyone to take care of you.

When you are sick and missed an appointment, you would be blamed and scolded and even ignored by the person even he/she is your closest one.

When you need help, everyone has a reason to disregard you, and you are not pleased to ask anyone to help.

When you want to have your breakfast, lunch and dinner, you may just consider have em alone.

When you want to have a sweet time movie in cinema, you may consider watch it alone.

When it’s your birthday, celebrate it by make yourself busy on the day :)

Tear of Examination

Hi guy, finally gets to turn on my computer and write a proper blog :)

Well, im sick now.. by the time i declare "sick", means im having pretty high fever right now. Anyway, im having my final exam, and last paper tmr.

My first paper is happened to be pretty unpromising when i wasn't on exam mode on the first day. I have wasted 1 hour looking at the ceiling, 30 minutes looking at whiteboard, and the 1 hour sneezing and coughing. I swear you would be annoyed if you were in the same exam hall with me. I can’t reflect of any words, and i have totally forgotten what i have studied on previous day. My current health state barely able to allow me thinks of a format to answer each question. Totally doomed to fail, i went to toilet and my tear keeps dropping, i am bothered if i really fail this paper, my family members would pressure me, and that would be quite severe for your information.

All the night I was thinking what if same shit would happen on the second day, so I have made my decision to sleep at 9pm and wake up at 3am, of course after medication. So yeah, I did very well in my FIN202 paper today. Thanks to the panadol that bi asked me to buy at 7-11 and a sweet morning wish from her :)

And tomorrow will be my last paper, and I have not read a shit yet, its ACC200, 100% theory based accounting question, the toughest subject out of 3 subjects I’m enrolling. Wish me luck~

Years of bithday experience.

Year 2006, my birthday happened on day before SPM, my best friends insisted to celebrate with me, and my parents just did not allow, i wasnt happy at all, we have argued, finally my dad gave me rm50 and thats it for my KFC birthday celebration.

Year 2007, my birthday happened on day before my 1st semester exam. Rebecca bought me Jay Chou disc if not mistaken.. Due to previous year, i planned to stay home and play game.. and yeah, again my best friends wanted to celebrate with me, planned to come over Sg Long, but... i have no money, and rmb i was crying on bed on birthday night, and my sister gift me RM100 and kept persuading me.

Year 2008, 7th May, the first birthday celebration i had with Chloe on her day, i bought her a cake, celebrated in my house and yeah she made a wish, i rmbed i sang an uncompleted birthday song to her, ps. We broke up weeks later. On 7th November, my birthday happened on day of my 3rd semester examination Chloe tried to surprise me outside my exam hall, but i went out earlier. So i went home, and she was waiting still in my college. First time took public transport and ended up in my college and she made it to Leisure Mall, which is darn funny.. When i saw her, she was hugging Tortoise, stood alone. and yeah, we had lunch at Wong Kok after we met Yiru and Erica(still in school uniform). Year 2008 was my first birthday celebration which i felt i was blessed. Thx bi for lighten up my day :) we got back together on 25th December, The Curve.

Year 2009, because of previous lighted up year, 7th May, unexpectedly joined bi's gang for her birthday at(forgotten what it was called), Sg Long. I rmb she has invited alot ppl and i paid the bill, around rm3xx.. Then on 7th November, if my memory serves me right, she baked me muffins but failed, and mana tau, ended up cupcakes but still, super failed, nice try =p >.< and yeah we went to Mid Valley, shopped shopped shopped, had movie at Signatures Garden, forgotten what movie and dinner in Chillis. :)

Year 2010, the best year ever(also the most regretful year ever).. 7th May oh yummy crabbie crabbie... We went to One Utama, watched Iron Man if not mistaken.... We later then sing K at Neway, One utama with my siblings. Ivy told me, why you gift her crocs, its not good, its sign that you are sending her away, one year later, proven :( On 7th November, had lunch with her family and my sibling at Tong Sing, we went for movie marathon afterwards...

Year 2011, fail year, failures ahead.... 3 months more to 7th November, this year birthday would be like how? expect no more. Ancient ppl write with blood, may i say this post was written by tear? No more to drop... 2 days continuously.... i wish Doraemon comes upon to rescue now... bring me back to January 2011 so i can fix everything..

Good night peeps. exit.

Simple and nice

Have been living a while in complicated life...

This new template, basically displaying my will to change my lifestyle. i just simply picked from the advanced template change, i don require much.. simple and just nice, isnt it? :)

Yes, im too good, but enough for keep assuming and presuming, people would be afraid to be friend with me.. They do not like to be under expectation...

Im not saying i will be wearing a mask, but now i would try my best to "talk when i should, quiet on what i should not say"

It has been quite a while since i against my parents. Last time i was a bad child, because of who i thought i was, i think my parents suck.. Never listen to me, always live with their expectation and limitation.. But who am i today, im an ambitious networker who with an ambition to give the best to my parents.. When i was starting to earn money, i have acknowledged that spending with self-worked out money kinda painful thou. Im a kind of person who likes to see money growing cent by cent and will not spend them until necessary... but if food is on subject, i can spend rm200 a day just for food, damn >.<

Was planning for a HK trip on 7th November, but i guess, i will be alone for this year's birthday.. Everyone says im weird, somehow i do agree thou, because i just did not like to celebrate birthday because of bad experience. Bad experience? will be on next post.

Found out..

Oh... News just travel fast.

It has been affirmed she has a new boyfriend already :) wow.. that was kinda fast @@
And she has changed her phone number... :) wow.. this is lol

My current feeling is kinda hard to be explained now...

Do Do Yeh?????

I want to watch Kungfu Panda2
I want to watch Harry Potter, Deathly Hallow part2

Watching movies in cinema have always been appearing to be the most difficult activities to be done for me, moreover im a single now, who do you think i could find to watch movie with me in cinema hmm :(

I want an Ipad2 $
I want a Macbook PRO $
I want a Gucci wallet $
Total: Rm7-8K

I can afford buying all these.. but somehow my self-awareness always remind me of "needs" and "wants". I don need those, but i want those, thats explaining the reason of these pending purchases. Money is not easy to earn, you need to work hard for it. As a full time student and also a part time networker, having so much money in bank account will definitely stick an "extraordinary" labor on my forehead. I have been in the business for 6 months, good and bad things come and go, came and went, came and still remaining.. but i still fight for it simply because of the core reason that i'm joining this business? If because of little humiliation, siblings argument, disagreement lead me to quit the business, then what for i pursue Degree in Business?

I always have told myself, this business is so fucking easy, if you, Brandon can not manage to run this well, how are you going to manage big company next time and be a millionaire? Thats totally contradict the purpose of pursuing business course..

Enjoy the bad news first :) Good comes after...

What is that so? 3 days ago, i was super down until yesterday, finally i had 1 account from Czelyn, credits to inappropriate desperation and exceptionally delighted, i have up-fronted rm796 for the prospect who i haven meet him/her yet.

And what is the bad news today?
Chloe always tell me, every morning when you see sunshine you will be very happy because the uncle sun is happy, so all these years, whenever i wake up in the morning, i will walk to my room window, open the curtain or move to balcony for the morning sunshine... but today 8AM- Czelyn smsed me "Brandon, ytd account don open first, her bf don let" and i was like? WTF? Depressing morning isn't it?

Anyway problem has been solved, Czelyn has found another member to replace the disowned account and my RM796 has already been allocated :)

Its time

Thanks to a really thought-provoking conversation, I am finally ready to write about how I feel instead of giving you cryptic entry after entry which you will never figure out anyway.

I'm an atheist. I do not believe in God or any forms of god. I do not believe in a higher power of any sort.

I was at these crossroads at one point in my life where I could go either way, and I honestly opened myself to it. I've been to temple a good number of times, I've talked to a million people about religion and have thought about this for more than half my life. I remember I was about 7 when I first started thinking about this concept of God and asked myself if I genuinely believed in it, as I was given the choice and knew that people either believed or didn't. I wasn't bought up in a way to believe and to be educated that there is God and I should worship Him.

The only reason I'm so closed to the concept of God now is that the period of thinking was over. At one point I could go any way, and a slight influence might have turned me from a skeptic to a hardcore believer. But it didn't. And I've had at least 8 good years of my life to think about that and it was then I made my decision. I don't believe.

I see the strength religion brings to people. Given a situation where my memory was completely erased and I had to choose between believing and not believing, I wouldn't hesitate for a second to choose to believe. I see how powerful it is and how beneficial it can be. But that doesn't make it any easier for me to believe in it.

At this point, because my mind's been so set on the fact that there is no God for me, it would take something monumental to change it. I'd admit here that finding a single flaw in my argument would be the first step towards this change. But I haven't found one yet, no matter how many times I've argued/disagreed/disputed with others. My self-confidence in most issues may be shit but this is the one thing I would lay my life upon.

And today I still await for an argument that would make me pause for even a second to doubt myself or struggle to look for an answer. I've channeled so much of my thinking on this subject and everything I have to say is at my fingertips, which is why I am this confident.

First of all, to the people who would like to give me the millions of examples of things that can't be proven by science or logic, let me stop you there. My reasoning is simple. The absence of something does not necessarily prove the presence of something else. There have only been scientific theories regarding how everything was created, and all attempts at scientific explanation are at the very least flawed. But that does not in any way prove that God was the answer to it. My logic is not that there is always a logical explanation to everything, but that you cannot conclude that God is the answer just because you couldn't find a logical explanation. Life is not a multiple choice question where you can eliminate possibilities of answers out because the possibilities are endless.

So if you are going to give me a million examples of things that haven't been explained by science, allow me to stop you there and say I'm well aware of that, I concede on the fact, but it still does not necessarily prove that God is the answer.

I used to believe. There wasn't a significant event that made me change my mind, but in a sense I sort of 'grew out' of the belief. The more I learnt about logical reasoning, the more I felt less inclined to believe in something just because I didn't have the answers I needed. There are so many things in life that would be simpler for me right now if I just believed and stopped questioning it. But I can't possibly force myself to. Not for anyone. Not even for me.

I'm close to so many people who believe in God in their own ways, and in a way I do feel really sorry for those who genuinely want me to believe because they want me to live a better life. But I feel the need to tell you all that this is my stand for now. I'd like to see the day I'm proven wrong, but I realistically don't see it happening. Ever. If you think I have a perception that's too closed and have blocked Him out, then you may be right, because I've spent too much of my life leaving myself open to it but nothing has changed in that long period of time for me to accept and believe. Thus I remain this way.

Sorry.

#18 Art of War(Chapter 2)

Art of War(Chapter 2) - 4 quadrants
4 Quadrant is where you would lead a mindset of people into positive side.
With proper presentation of 4 quadrants, one who was anti-mlm, heard of score-A, failure would initially turn positive. So please learn well :)
Please remember "Rich Dad, Poor Dad" written by Robert Kryosaki, he actually stated out 4 quadrant on how a successfull business can be done.
1st Quadrant - Employee
Result - Prospect will understand employee's life is unfavorable.
Ask your prospect how much is his salary? or allowance? Does that enough? Planning forward for next stage of life? You must come out with a number(salary), increase it, do a budget, increasing rate.
2nd Quadrant - Self employed
Result - Prospect will understand self employed isn't an appropriate choice and have to work hard to cover all administration, salary and advertisement cost in order to start generating profit. Also, in this quadrant, you may reckon which package he/she can afford.
Capital(administration cost)- Rm100k, Rm10k(6888), Rm5k(2488), Rm1k(796)
Salary(Salary expenses)
Strategy(Advertisement cost)
Summarize both 1 and 2 - work hard
Summarize both 3 and 4 - work smart
Do you want to work smart or work hard?
3rd Quadrant - Business
Result - Prospect will understand there's only one thing that can achieve their dream which is business(working as an employee or self employed will never get him/her to buy their dream car in short time). Only networking is available for student to earn a lot of money in short time.
4th Quadrant - Investment
Result - MLM(Multi Level Marketing) is a concept additional to a business(a pen you are holding is a product, but with one product, you cannot earn money, but with marketing plan, you can earn alot alot of money, thats what MLM means)
"In Malaysia, there are 700++ mlm companies, for example Amway and Cosway. Although we are MLM, but we are not doing direct sales and totally different from others, so lets carry on with the product"
If prospect is in the workforce, who has years of working experience, you may straightforward to 4th Quadrant.
If he feel insulted, use whatever it costs to stay him/her. Please remember, if a prospect meeting you, HE/SHE NEEDS MONEY!! so just say this:
"if today you come out, you are in need of money, you want to earn a lot of money in long term profit, you wan to get rid of employee life, ONLY MLM CAN HELP YOU!!!! What kind of MLM, you have to see what kind of companies, companies see what kind of product, product needs to see how far is the potential market, may you just listen to our product?" - Settled
"Speak as fast and clear as you can, so prospect has nothing to say."
p/s 1:
Congrates to our lovely Amelia Ang - first place of KMC
Congrates to our leader Adele Chow - Top income earner
Congrates to Tan Chee Lim and Lim Yong Hao for getting into top 30 star distributors of the month. You efforts will not be wasted.
p/s 2: Send your people for training, preferable English training(Sunday). To those who had attended training, send them for BLT(Bonafide Leadership Training).
p/s 3: Guys, remember, no one fails under Brandon's team. In Bonafide, we fight fight fight. Fight for our financial freedom. We must graduate with style, graduate with 6 figures in our account, drive our dream car to our graduation ceremony. In Bonafide, we trust :)
p/s 4: Coming appointments, you all have to present 4 quadrants to me. Thank you.
~ Brandon
This article is strictly for presenters only.

#17 None

I don't involve myself in a lot of things for one simple reason. The impact isn't worth it, for the amount of effort I put in.

That's been my perception for so long that I even apply it to friends nowadays. I've been very close to a lot of people at many points in my life but have lost contact with pretty much all of them. I'm not blaming them. But I'm not blaming myself either. Why get emotionally affected by something that would not have actual significance to my future?

This is the way I've looked at things after a certain point in my life and that's when I became care-free about...well, just about everything in my life. No matter how down I get because of something SERIOUS, I know to learn to accept it and move on. And when something slightly short of serious happens, I brush it aside.

As a result, I give most people advice along these lines when they turn to me for help. Just forget about it. Think about the times you were embarrassed because you couldn't answer a question in class, or because you didn't do your homework and you were humiliated. Do you even remember any of those situations now? Yet, at that point, it was probably the most important thing to you and you couldn't get over it for days.

I don't know if what I'm saying is getting through to any of you but I just want to say this: Fuck it. Let life take its course and whatever happens, don't let it get in the way of your happiness.

Whether someone did something wrong or right is impossible to tell because we don't know for sure what wrong or right is. Whether someone deserves what they got is not something for us 'mortals' to decide. So let it be. Life is full of people who do the most fucked up things in the world yet succeed over everyone else; as well as great people who have hard lives and die young. Accept it. Life is unfair. Just make sure you live your life to the fullest and don't spend the whole of it whining about how lucky others have been.

I can tell you this. I quite frankly couldn't give a shit. I don't care who's right or wrong. Some people did messed up things, some people didn't. But who cares? In 5 days this will all be over and half of us will forget about the things that happened. In a few months, I won't see 99% of the people I see here everyday. And for this reason I won't hold grudges against anyone for anything that they have done because it has literally no effect on my future. That's why it's practically impossible to get on my bad side - because I don't have one.

What really remains is that we are in charge of our own lives and we're here to enjoy it and make the best out of it. Single, or poor, or in terrible health, or planning to destroy mankind, or spending your last moments choking on a bottle cap; just do what you feel you've been put on this earth for, and don't let tiny things get in the way of your happiness.

#16 Gender?

There's no such thing as gender superiority. Who you are today wasn't pre-determined by your gender. It's the easy way out to generalize and classify people's characteristics according to their gender, but it's NOT the answer.

#15 A MAN

As a man,

Know your fault, correct it and improve but NEVER admit fault! ~ 3 kingdoms (CAO CAO)

#14 Art of War

This is only for my own reference to be sent to my people. :)

Approaching segmentation:
Group your friend in 2 categories
1) You jump i jump -----> 2)You jump i see
See you join i join(trusted) See you earn i join
(Approach this first) (Approach after you start earning)

Facebook segmentation:
Male: Part time job available for male only
Female: Part time job available for female
Age range: Part time job available for age 20
Area: only in KL area

Best friend:
May straightforward to them, seek for trust, be sincere. Emphasize on friendship before getting upperhand. Best friend usually contribute alot in "Rejection list"

Primary and Secondary friend:
Ice breaking session(1 or 2 days) - put yourself in their shoes.
Friend: "hi, so what are you doing now?"
You: "nothing la, study in (uni), doing some part time job loh, earning like 500-1000 per week"
Friend: "wah so much, what job? i want i want"
You: "aiya, i dont think you are interested, busy now gtg haha"
(offline) and continue the other day :)

Stranger:
Never give details, if they are arrogant, then be more arrogant. make them think they are selected. They find job, not job find them.
Status: "Part time job available, only for male, age 18-20, KL, PM me"
If they ask for details:
"Sorry i may only be allowed to disclose further information when meeting face to face"
If they refused to come out without details:
"Then we shall forget about it"

p/s Remember, your role is to get them to come out. You dont have to mention mlm, score A, investment, find people"
p/s Situation may differ and you may decide on how to remain your conversation. Always be the more superior one.

Art of presentation
Intro yourself - shake hand(confident)
Language - Mix some languages to decorate your presentation.
Relax - to make your prospect comfortable.
Body language - to make your presentation more interesting.
Ask more question - to put them in your shoes.
Give more example(make yourself ^.^) - to make your presentation understandable.
Smile and appoint some jokes - to initiate positive mindset.

Whoever of you wish to learn presentation, may call me for a session :)

Leaders/presenter behaviour:
Never judge your prospect(they can be poor, low self esteem, stingy), trust me, when it comes to money, the hunger of people will appear.
Always listen to your leader(always remember your leader will always help you for mutual benefit, leader's command is crucial).
Always help your downline(bonding, make them feel loved).
Never do presentation with more than 3 prospects, if more, bring to preview.
Whenever your leader text you, always think twice before reply. (imagine your downline said the same to you, what would you think?"
Always stand for rejections, the more it is, the more you have to prove them wrong.

Line Structure:
Leader: The one who direct you for appointments (May not be the one who brought you in)
Upline: Could be the one who brought you in, might not be your leader. Your upline is your business partner.
Downline: Ppl you brought or under you. You might not know all of them. Categorize your own team and only response to your own team and partners
Sideline: Ppl who is not related to you and do not contribute to your structure but both serving same leader or upline. May meet when called upon meeting, must respect each other.

Good Luck PEEPS.
In Bonafide, we fight.
Heybutt!!!

By Brandon

#13 Feeling Cafe

Haha, i was supposed to do appointment at here, Feeling Cafe, since the environment here is full of echo, thanks to the singers haha so i will appreciate this very precious moment to rest and chill with friend, conducting real chit chatting.

It was quite a while since i sit in a cafe with friends, chat and laugh. And yes, FOR TODAY ONLY!!!!

I was quite surprised when Chloe called me loser in serious tone, The anticipated "loser" is full of anger and hatred as felt.. I was quite down after a while, had insomnia, that would explain why i was late to appointment this morning..

Honestly, i am regret to hurt her feeling, even breaking up with her - i cant believe i love her more now. Frankly speaking, everytime after i was pissed by her, i would love her more, pats here more lol because she really is cute and lovely. Haplessly, she seems happier now, she has more freedom than before, SHE CAN DRIVE NOW!! LOL!! If last time she can drive, it could've saved most of my time. See... she drives now lol. Looking forward for her future, she really does look better, how can i ruin her life and future AGAIN? i shouldn't think to get back to her, indeed, i shouldn't.

Should i stop this 100 posts count? let me consider and reconsider again with higher and hard pillow tonight. :)

#12 Hee Hee

Looks like i have few readers here - They are delighted of my blog resurrection yet they asked - what is with the future relationship? "i don think she will read your blog, don even remember your blog link" - yes i do agree, why am i wasting time here blogging when she will never know haha. I believe she has faith in me, she will read this one day. Anyway......

I have faked a day today, i told Adele i'm carrying on second day tournament in Putrajaya, just to get rid of being summoned to office. I wish i have appointments to do today - how unproductive, all appointments cancelled wehhhh... hmm!!!






i miss Chloe Yap<3

#11 Rest

Today will be the only day i can rest... 3 months working restless, sometimes i do miss my past - burden-less, stress-less, da gei, hang out with friends and wasting money with only 250 per week by my dad. I do admit my previous was fun, enjoyable and happy but still.... fuck it. Now im in my business making figures per months as a full time student, i don see why is this not fun lol. i love my parents, i love my bi, i love all my core leaders, downlines. <3

#10 Good luck

Just acknowledged today is your exam day weee. Good luck!!! make me proud..

#9 Downfall

Im having a serious downfall of my life now...

Im all alone in snowflake sg wang..
Been here since 11am lol, but prospect ffk, penny is in pavilion with her mom and sister haha. i don think she knows that im here, but anyway who cares? lol

This week is super unproductive, what happen to these people, saying no money in Malaysia. Sometimes i do demotivate myself, i used to have bi to support me, spiritually support. But now - i have to move independently, i cant believe that im actually depressed because of losing her. I thought i was strong and solid yet im not. I thought although i have lost her, i still have my best friends with me, yet they arent around. I have all the false thought, yet i still fight for it. I dowan to be a failure, let all the bad stuff fade away and here goes Brandon again :)

#8 Solely

Went to do several appointments like usual, daily basis, some cant close, some had been doing score A, some are forbidden by parents and boyfriend, and some paid deposit. Always come in thought, should i folk out for them first? i suggest not, i will never know if someone i have pay for them ended up missing in action.

Currently waiting for next prospect to come, guess this will be the last prospect of the day. Penny, her emotion have been changing lately, i rather don talk much as im afraid she might demotivate herself again :( but i really am worried about her in every way, because she always think alone, very thoroughly - can be seen through her facial expression. I think i've been bringing much burden to her. She actually said and meant "im sad or not doesnt affect you", ouch, quite hurt though because it does really affect me sia.. My conscience told me, someone is guiding her in other way around, maybe im being too sensitive but she really does seem different. Who actually did this? hmm. i hope im wrong and shes still nice to me ^.^

#7 Oh My GOD!!!!

100 posts count?? 6 posts in 2 days, this is the #7

same like old day, when start blogging, just cannot stop writing hahaha but din you notice my writing style is totally different now. No more bombastic word. I rather wanting ppl to read my blog happily and doubtless than keep checking on dictionary.

I'm now in Popeye, just ate 4 pieces of fried chicken, just cant stop eating. OMG i have been earning so much yet i did not shop, but keep eating constantly. Guess i might be needing some diet product hahahaha..

Last time i do suffer of lacking money, as a rich student now, ive got nowhere to spend, conclusively, money really does not matter to me doesnt it.

I went through several appointments today, all poor little student, cant join because do not have sufficient cash, parents barrier - pityful

Now doing vrinda appt, she's looking at me now writing this single statement LOL, btw where is Karmen Lim? i thought both of you are twin sisters LoL

#6 Resentment

Seeing this emoticon >.< bring me back to the past when i was curious why this Chloe Yap keep using this ><, but when i start putting this emoticon in a cartoon image, it turns out damn cute just like her hahaha.

I was surprised by her new post, like just now?? She seems mad at me, but what can i do, yeah, like what i always do, pretend to be nothing and sad alone yahh!!! What i want to do is to be good in this business, i have my egoism, today i give my parents allowance, and i want to remain this continuously. I have took the step where i cant retreat, i cant ask for my dad allowance, because by doing this, i will be "sui zai". I do hope you really understand haih >.<

#5 Discredited

Im in Starbuck waiting prospect hahaha, i saw Tziaa and Adele came after!!! OMG!!! im so afraid of her T.T

Penny Annabella and Brandon Chen

Penny is in her denial state because of her relationship issues. I cant help her much because she doesn't seem needing my help. I care her a lot, but she seems discrediting it. I will never know what is in her mind, what shes thinking, i really concern >,< - concern not in sense of because of business we are in, concern as part of a friend's responsibility.

What Chloe is doing now? i guess shes in Nottingham planting tree - GEE GEE ah lol

#4 What if??

What if she do not like me anymore?
What if she has found better?
What if she ignores even after she knows about my blog resurrection?
What if she do not know about the 100 counts at all?
What if she suddenly tell me "hey, i just read your blog, LOL?"
What if ...
What if ...

There are these "what if"s appeared in my mind when i woke up this morning. Still.... our faith lies upon 100 posts count. Now just at #4, 96 left ^.^

#3 Exhausted

Super tiring.. Did so many appointments but are not manage to close. Simply because they have no money to join. Some with money but still don feel like joining because they would want to just to enjoy their life before start working as an employee. Sorry to say that, when you are in my reject list, you cant escape to be listed in my curse list. Bi, i always wish you are here to support me :)

#2 100 posts count?

I do not expect anyone to read my blog because this is the main reason i continue blogging here.
I will make this fair enough.

Chloe Yap, breaking up with you is a pain. I will never thought of saying this sentence "lets break up" because i believe in relationship, both must fight together throughout happiness or pain, accept changes, loving each other... but you actually said it.

I said:

When you ask for break, im not sad at all - but you never know that i actually cried for the whole night

Im ready for new relationship - This is a lie, 2 years relationship cannot be simply replaced by other.

Just take it as i love another ppl - if you really believe in me, you will never trust this sentence.

why i would ask for break? The 1st break up by you was alr a nuke, it does great damage to our trust. You did not trust me anymore, you simply listen to unnecessary exaggeration by other ppl and start blaming, ignoring and mad at me. I do not reserve the right to explain to you, because when you start blaming and ignoring me, means you did not trust me anymore. Since i've asked for 2nd break up, and IF you STILL loving me, then this blog will be the measurement of it.

100 posts count means if you get to realise this blog has been resurrected, i will be back together with you. Im not being ego, i still love you. i will still call you bi. Good to know that you have removed my blog link, so i can make this more difficult. And of course, even if you have find out this blog, please make sure you've learn cooking because i would like to have breakfast, lunch and dinner made by you <3

The counts will be stopped if one of the following is denoted:

1) When i know you have find better :)
2) When i have find better :)

I believe if im still possessed in you, you will check out of my blog very soon :)

#1 Resurrection

Actually i did plan to create new blog rather than continue in this stupid expired blog.

But doesnt matter, i notice that most of my readers do not read my blog anymore, blame on me, it was me who left it :)

This blog has been improvised a little bit. Email changed. Everyone is allowed to read now and can be searched through google search now.